shotgun

roll off my back
patience and anger
like rain
a heart attack
you’re in danger
again

I will never trust
anyone again
I will never make
another friend

I won’t rest
until every last one is dead
until at last I put sorrow to bed

sleep is the new dead
grief is the mindset
I want to suffer
because I only get one death
I want to be sure
that I have no regrets

such a pity ...
that we have to die
like this
to bat an eye
and crack an eyelid
to live a life
without an end
to want to cry
but scream instead